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Friday, May 25, 2007
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TODAY was the last day of school. AND I ALMOST WISHED I DIDNT ATTEND SCHOOL TODAY, SERIOUSLY. got back my results, found out that i didnt get in nominations again, found out that only the SYF choir will participate in the open house tomorrow. it's demoralising you know. i told my parents my results and they kept on scolding me le. they say i'll fail fail fail. FINE. i know my term results are really bad. but at least i improved on my history even though i did badly for my maths la. BUT like i always say, THEY, ONCE AGAIN, DID NOT GIVE ANY WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT OR PRAISE FOR THE BETTER SUBJECTS. and now, there goes my mp3. it's confiscated again. what's wrong with me. i hate myself. for losing EVERYTHING i do. i tried soooo hard, did soooo many things and my results for EVERYTHING IS SHIT. perhaps im what parents always say, that im stupid, i'll fail, i will get retained. perhaps one day i'll be the one doing self-mutilation, cut myself and escape from being emotionally painful. is that what i'll do? i dunno, i only know I HAVE LOST; AS MYSELF. - GN /♥ ; 22:15 |
CREDITS.
edited: like-candystrucked basecodes: shiroyasha|detonatedlove |