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Thursday, May 10, 2007
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I KEEP TELLING MYSELF. I'LL MUG THIS TODAY, GET THIS DONE TODAY, NOT USE THE INTERNET FOR TODAY. and now i am already wasting my time using the computer. i have no idea what i use the computer for, seriously. everytime when i'm online, i'll perhaps blog or just stare at the screen, waiting for the people i am msn-ing to reply my messages. like, it's so lame. i seriously have no idea. do i do all these just to avoid homework? avoid stress? i have no idea. and, i changed, totally. i used to be soo enthusiastic about schoolwork. i'll complete it as fast as possible with melody.. but now, im so lethargic the whole day. i cannot concentrate on what the subject teacher is talking and i've become even more lazy. i wanna go back to the original me, the happy-go-lucky, the enthusiastic girl. not the overly emotional, lethargic and lazy me now. SUCKS I TELL YA. i dunno what happened to me. i cannot stand any single bit of nagging now and im very sensitive to everything that's around me. im becoming more and more unbearable right? i seem to be able to sense it. i've been shooed away many times, am i that noisy? im not angry, im sad. i dunno what has happened and i do not really want to know. even i cant accept my own attitude. and tomorrow, it's the first cca day after the midyrs we had. and i actually dread going it, because of a person. i dunno, i feel bad, feel guilty about going to choir. i wanna get in the ndp performance rv's performing this year. and i bet we havta go through rounds of auditions. im worried, because no matter how hard i try to improve, she nvr seemed to be able to see it. i really did tried, but.. ohwell. there goes my npd performance.. but i wont give up, one day i'll let her see i really did try my best. i'll keep all laughter to myself and i wont appear a single bit of not being serious. i'll jiayous, cause i know we all must work as a family [: HAISH mug, ive been telling myself to mug once and again, seeing my terrible results i got back. i really have to bid farewell to my mp3 already. i cant almost bet the rest of the results i'll get back will not fare well. ARGH, i can do it. i'll mug i'll mug. but i dun think i'll really mug, sucks la. - GN /♥ ; 21:59 |
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edited: like-candystrucked basecodes: shiroyasha|detonatedlove |